Delayed Gratification/Postponement

I have been reading the “Eat it Later” book while Monster is in swim class. And as long as I stay focused on the book I get quite a lot read. The last time I posted I was talking about how the author says this is not a diet but a journey to well-being. Well he is still stressing that, and now we have gone on from talking about taking control of our foods and onto delayed gratification, or postponement.

At first I thought his idea was absurd, then I got worried because food has always been my weak spot. I eat my emotions, I eat because I am bored and I eat simply because the food looks good and it is there.  Well the authors new idea is to rate your craving. He stressed that we should pause, rate, decide.

Meaning if our craving is not very high then we shouldn’t eat it, instead wait until you can’t bare it anymore and indulge, within reason. He says that each person’s rating is different. So pick a number between 1 and 10. If there is cake on the table you pause, rate how high your craving is, then decide if it is high enough to grab a piece or if you should wait until later. Seems easy enough, until you ignore your senses and go for.

Then that is when he tells you not to be sorry. Just to pick yourself up and do better next time. He stresses A LOT that we are not on a diet but rather on a journey to wellbeing. I have been practicing the portion control of it and now I am excited to add another part.  An aspect that he tacks on is that when you wait until your craving is higher than the food tastes better, you enjoy it a lot more. I guess that is the part that I am the most excited to experience. I am still on the chapter about postponement, but it is all very informative and keeps me wanting to come back and read the book.

Sadly, reading the book is the only fitness part of my life. I have put my Fitbit back on and have been hitting an average of 5,000 steps a day. I am drinking more water than coffee and I am trying to remember to eat breakfast, which usually consists of two eggs, toast and orange juice. I don’t want to go on a diet. I don’t want to regulate what I can and can’t eat. But I feel that if I follow what this book is telling me then I will succeed, and I know that I will have to work out in order to lose weight.

Which I am working on. I have a challenge in mind that I want to try, I am developing it on my own so I don’t want to reveal what it is until I get it done and I try it myself, but keep a look out. If it works then I will post about it.  Now that Monster and I have a routine going it will be easier to find time to be active. Whether it is walking the dog or letting him play in the toddler area while I work out. I want to be smaller, I want to lose weight. I just need to find what works for me and go for it.

Before I go I would like to happily announce that despite not working out I have lost some weight. I am now 204.4 pounds, from the 208 I was a couple months ago. I have adjusted my goal weight a little so it is attainable, I am now shooting to be 175, that seems healthy and it is something I can reach. So now I have a little less than 30 pounds to lost instead of the original 50 or so. Wish me luck because I could use it. Until then…ME!


My loyal readers, I am sorry (once again) for going MIA. I have been busy unpacking boxes and going to school. But as of yesterday I unpacked the last box for the house. Now it is just making sure everything is in its place, and putting up pictures. Next we will go into my husband’s garage and sort through things that need to go into storage. I am still renting a space, but the goal is to put everything into tubs so it can go into our little storage shed. Also, my husband is ready to use ALL of his garage. Should not be to hard to do in a couple hours. The hardest part will be taking them to storage.

On top of the household stuff I have been going to school. Thankfully I got a break in math, meaning the material my professor is teaching is stuff I either pick up quickly on or I already know it. So I have been able to relax a little. My computer class has been falling behind because it is self paced, so I have not been working on it, and now I really have to cram it in cause the quarter is almost done. My Communications class has been going great. We finished our group projects and I got a pretty good grade on it. Now it is just wrapping things up and studying to take the final. I am excited for the quarter to end because I am even more excited to take my classes for Spring.

I am a little nervous about one class but I am sure I will do fine. I have two online classes and one class in the evening twice a week. But I am excited to take these classes because now that I have my degree on track and I know for sure what I am working towards I am beyond excited to get started on it. Good things are in store for our family.

Monster is doing great in his swim lessons. We are to the point where I am not needed in the pool. The last two weeks I have been sitting on the side of the pool, and he hasn’t really noticed I am not in there. Then last week his teacher said that I could try not getting in at all. I am going to take my swim suit though, just in case. I have confidence that Monster will do fine though, he really likes his teacher and he thoroughly enjoys playing in the water. I am excited to see his progress, and I am not as sad as I was in the start because I know that him growing up is what is needed and there will be other things I can do with him, or things that he will need me for and I look forward to it.

As you can imagine with all the things going on I have not been able to read much. Sadly I have fallen behind in that category. Though since I am going to focus on potty training Monster next week I have been reading a potty training book. Once I finished it, I will post a review. I am still reading the health book, just very slowly. And speaking of health, I haven’t lost any weight, and I haven’t gained it either. I have restarted the squat challenge for a third time now.  I am currently on day four. Now that the house in unpacked I can form and get into the groove of a schedule. Also, with only one class on campus next quarter I can workout before/after swim without having to rush. And my kids hooked up the Wii Fit board so I can check that out. Even my husband is trying to find a Zumba disk I can use at home. I truly excited for it all.

I think that about covers it. Life has been busy, hectic and wonderful. My disk is uncovered and organized now so I can sit here and write all day if I wanted and not have to worry about putting it away. But for now I have to go… Monday is swim day. Oh and one last thing… it just occured to me that I have had this blog for a whole year now, so Happy Blogiversary to me! Thank you my loyal readers for sticking around. More to come later. Until then… Me!

“We are not on a diet; we are on a journey to well-being”

Alright, so I told you that the squats are really kicking my thighs. And it has not stopped at all, right after Tuesday’s post the program had me do 120 squats. WOW, it seemed like a lot, but I found that it wasn’t that hard. I was able to do about 94 squats before I had to slow breath.  I didn’t want to stop because I was afraid I would lose momentum. It has been a wild ride with this squat challenge. I can feel my thighs getting tighter and the more I do them the longer I can do them. Once this challenge is done I will be starting on another. I like that there are different levels to the challenges, that way when you feel like your body is ready you can step it up and really get a workout. And with the different types (bodyweight and arms to name a few) I can make a short workout out of them everyday, even if I don’t get to the gym. Well, on top of doing the challenge I have been reading a book about healthy lifestyles.

I touched on it a little bit at the beginning of this year, but now I am going to really touch on it. The book is called “Eat it Later: Mastering Self Control & The Slimming Power of Postponement” written by Michael Alvear. So far this book has been slow going but also informative. It is about a new idea of weight loss. Instead of going on a diet and then stopping then starting it all over again it is about a lifestyle change. Of course you still want to workout and be healthy but you don’t have to starve yourself to do so. The author says it is a little like a twelve step program, it is self gratification and being able to reduce the amount you eat without triggering your body’s fight or flight response when you cut foods out of your diet.

At first I was not sure how this was going to work. But once I read through the introduction and the instruction part I started to understand. Especially when the author told of his story on how he went from eating 16 Oreos in a sitting to 3. Now I don’t want to give away the whole book because I want to encourage you to read it too. I started reading it because my mom found it on a website she goes to regularly (, you can get a lot of good books and deals). She thought I would like to look at it because I have always struggled with portion sizes and what I eat. So the point in me telling you about the book is to let you know what I take from it and how it works for me. And to encourage you to give it a try because you never know, it could impact your life as well.

The reading has been slow going because I have a full course load at school and we are preparing to move into our new home.  But I read when I can, and what I have read so far is very informative and I am willing and excited to try it. The author stresses that this is not a diet, it is a journey to well-being. You’re not changing what you’re eating, but rather how much and how often. The major part of all this is that you are not doing it all at once, you are doing it over time. No set time either. Example; the author went from eating 16 oreos to 14, then once that felt like the new normal and his body was used to it he went down to 12.

He kept at this until he hit 8, that is when his body started to panic, wanting more. So his friend, who was helping him in this process, told him to go back up to 8 and go down by 1 when his body was ready. It is all about what works best for you, you have to really listen to your body and what it is telling you. There is an excerpt in the book that really explains it. I read the book on my Kindle so I can’t really tell you the page number but I found it useful so I want to share it; ” Psychologists have labels for this process: ‘Systematic desensitization’ and ‘habituation’. You make tiny reductions that the body can’t react to (desensitization). You let your body acclimatize to the reduced level for a while (habituation). Once the reduced level becomes the body’s “new norm” you start another round of reductions. You keep doing this until you hit your target. And by the time you hit your target your body doesn’t know what hit it.”

Basically that is the gist, in fancier terms. When I read that I thought at first that it would be impossible, but when I thought about it, well it started to make sense. Eventually you will do it and not even realize it. First you have to think of what your problem food is. Is it to many Oreo’s? Chips? Sodas? Then you work from there. I am still on that part. I have no pinpointed what the issue is because honestly it’s all food. But I am going to think on it some more while I read the rest of chapter two.

This week was not so bad, but I know I can be better, both in my food choices and in getting active. So stay tuned… until then… ME!


Squats Galore

I have done squat challenges before, but none have been like the one I am doing now. I am doing the challenge on an application called “30 Day Fit”, you can find it in any google play store. I am not sure about Apple so if anyone looks it up let me know so I can spread the word.

Well this challenge has been really interesting. It started me out with 30 squats, no big deal, though I was a little winded when I was done. The next couple days where 50, 75 and 60. Then it was the first “rest day”.  No big deal, not a huge difference. Then came day six, since then the squats have been kind of weird. I went from 60 to 90 then all the way down to 45. Such a huge jump. I am wondering why they aren’t keeping to a pattern. The might be and I just don’t see it yet. Or maybe it is a method I am not familiar with. Either way it has been beneficial.

In the beginning I was really winded and sweat a lot by just doing the few I had. And as I progress I find that I am not as winded. I can now do 50 squats without cramping or stopping. I am proud of that accomplishment. And I have been feeling the benefits because my thighs feel firmer and less squishy, I can’t wait to see a physical difference. There are also different challenges on the application. Including Abs, Bodyweight and Push Ups. Once this first challenge is over I am going to try some of the others, then I might add a couple together. I could get a workout without even leaving the house.

I can’t wait to see what is up next. I know that today is 45 squats, not sure what tomorrow will be because it doesn’t unlock until you have unmarked the current day. I have found that having the application helps me keep myself accountable and I can see the progress I am making and what day I am on.

This week my goal is to read some of the fitness book I have then report to you guys a little about what I have read. Sort of like a book report. Just need to carve out the time do so. So stay tuned… until then… ME!


Good Afternoon everyone, I hope your weekend is going well and you have been keeping up with your New Year’s resolutions, whatever they may be. I have been doing pretty good with mine. I am on day 6 of my squat challenge and I am already feeling a difference. My legs are stiff and I feel a little bit of toning in my thighs. My knee throbs every day, which sounds like a bad thing but it means I have been active. Which is a good thing. I have been practicing portion control. It is really tough sometimes, but as long as I stay conscious in what I am doing then I do pretty good.

Monster is in swim lessons twice a week so that means I am in the pool with him. When we are just waiting around for the teacher I will do squats in the water, hold onto the wall and kick my feet and do other various moves in the water. So instead of just sitting there freezing I am staying active. I have slipped twice though since my last post, I had fast food. I had forgotten to eat soemthing and it was so easy to pick it up. I am determined to do better this week. I just need to prep some snack and make sure I have something on me when I am out.

All in all I think this was a great week. And I feel like next week will be better, I am going to try and make it that way. So stay tuned… until then… ME!


Fitness Goals and Squats

We are almost two weeks into the New Year. And this year I am determined to lose weight and love my body. That is my biggest goal, practically my only goal. It is so important to me to love my body again and to show my daughters how to be healthy. As part of that I am doing “challenges” all year. This month it happens to be squats. The original idea was to start on my birthday (the 8th of January), but I got busy and forgot to put in on my to do list. So I started yesterday. I am using an app called “30 Day Fit”.

It is a cool app where you can keep track of what you are doing. They also have different challenges on there as well, like abs, bodyweight and push ups.  Each of them have three levels, with a sub level. So you have beginner one and two. Each day, after completing that day’s challenge, they open the next day so you know what you are going to be doing. I started mine yesterday, and since I have not been working out regularly I decided to start from the beginning with beginner. I am doing level 1 to start out slow. That consisted of thirty squats, and oh man I was huffing and puffing by the end, bad I know. But it is a start. Today I am suppose to do fifty, I am excited to know what they have in store tomorrow.

I have not been reading the health book I purchased because I started school again and have not found my groove. But I will and I am going to start reading it again. And as for my eating habits, well I have only eaten fast food once, but I am snacking and I need to stop, going to start drinking more water when I think I am hungry. Also, I have been consistent in eating breakfast, so that is a start.

I know there is a ton of room for correction, and I am slowly finding my way. I will get there and then hopefully things will run a little smoother. Oh one last thing, I have started to keep myself on a sleeping schedule. I get up at 5:30am and then go to bed between 10pm and 11pm, all depends on the amount of homework I have left to do that day.

So as  recap;


  • Started squat challenge, doing good so far
  • Eating breakfast every morning, and healthy too
  • Sleeping schedule set, with room for improvement


  • Need better eating habits
  • less snacking
  • read fitness book to help with eating

Looks about even, hopefully next week there will be more pros than cons. I will write again on Saturday to let you know how it is all going and what I have been able to work on. Hopefully I will have a report on the book. So stay tuned and until then… ME!

Fitness Goals

Ok so first of all I know I sound like a broken record when I say I am going to lose weight and then go on about how I am going to do it. But this time is different, way different. For starters I am reading a book called “Eat It Later; Mastering Self Control and The Slimming Power of Postponement” by Michael Alvear. I am not to far into it but it is like a twelve step program for those of us who over eat or don’t pay attention to portions.  So I will be reading it and sharing the information I find with you. I am literally going to try it this way. I am excited to see how it will work and to see if I can do it. But this is not all.

I am not going to keep track of what I eat, I always feel guilty and I can never keep up with it. So instead I am going to pay attention to portions, what types of food I am eating (going to try to eat more fresh things) AND I am going to eat less fast food, none if I can help it. Yes I am going to keep working out, I am even going to do fun little challenges. The first of which started yesterday, what better day to start squats then on my 26th birthday right? I will keep you up to date on how it is going.

So to round it all up:

  • I am going to read a book and follow it, it is not a diet but a way of living. I will share with you the contents of the book and how I am doing with it.
  • I am not going to keep track of my food but pay attention to portions and what I am eating.
  • I am going to continue to work out and add some fun. I am going to do some monthly challenges, starting with the 30 day squat challenge.

I hope that I can do this. I really want to love my body again. I used to always take pictures of myself but now I barely have any photos of myself. I feel like this is my year to get healthy and be AWESOME! So stay tuned!