I am a 24 year old mother of three (only 1 is mine though). I married the man of my dreams, a man that I have had a crush on since I was 10 years old. It has been a whirlwind of events. Shortly after we got married I got pregnant, nine months later I have a baby boy. But when I got with my husband I let my entire life go. Everything I used to do. Clubbing, Partying, living with roommates, and go on random trips. I thought I would miss it. I thought eventually I would resent my husband for it. In truth I am glad I let go of it. I always knew I was meant for something bigger and better. And when I actually thought about my old life I found it was empty. Clubbing led to sleepless nights which resulted in a never ending day at work cause I was so sluggish. Roommates where drama cause I am the sort of person who likes things neat and tidy and a certain way. The partying was fun, as long as it wasn’t at my house, and the random trips meant I was exploring. Both of which I can do with my family but on a different level.
What I didn’t realize is that letting go of my old life I was letting go of who I was. Or a part of myself who defined who I was for so long. I had a ton of distractions between then and now. I was getting married so I had that to distract me. Then it was being pregnant and running a household. Nine months later it was caring for an infant while keeping the house running. And the final distraction was my gall bladder surgery in October. But once I was cleared by the Doctor to go about my normal life (with a steady handle on my diet), I had no idea where to go from there.
I was out of distractions. Now I am stuck with the question, who am I now? The usual is still there, I still have the same favorite colors, foods, books and music. But it is the deeper stuff that I have not figured out. So that is why I am blogging. I am here to discover who I am, besides just a mother and wife. I blog about my days, my dreams and things that pop into my head, on top of the Challenges given. So far I have found out that optimism is hard to hold onto unless you have faith in something. My faith is that everything happens for a reason and we can make the best out of anything that comes our way. But there has to be more then that. I also blog to find comfort in the fact that I am not in this alone. I am not the only step mother, or first time mom all in the same year. I am not the only one who has a significant other who is the polar opposite of them yet they make the marriage work and still be happy.
So far I can tell you that I know my favorite colors are purple, dark green, and all shades of blue. I love to wear camo of almost all types (woodland is my most favorite). I prefer to read books that help me and books that let me escape this world into another one. I love country music and anything I can move my hips to. One new thing is my love for working out. That is new since being married. It is a small step but at least it is a start.